I Don’t Let Myself

— Helen Gallant

In one of his Principles of Right Speech, Buddha said
“When someone cannot hear your truth, retain noble silence.”
So, I don’t let myself speak my truth to people who don’t want my truth.
My truth seems bad for them.
When I’m 95, I will speak my truth to everyone.
Let them suffer.

I don’t let myself drink that gorgeous elixir called coffee.
Coffee’s bad for me.
I can’t drink coffee unless it’s 3 cups, loaded with sugar and cream.
When I’m 95, I will drink coffee
And die whenever.

I don’t let myself eat french fries.
French fries are bad for me
Because I have to have a heap or none at all.
When I’m 95, I will eat french fries, all the heaps I want
And die whenever.

I don’t let myself join a gym.
Chlorine in the pool and hot tub are bad for me
Because I want to luxuriate talking to new people in the hot tub frequently.
When I’m 95, I will join a gym and sit in the hot tub all I want
And die whenever.

I don’t let myself eat my favorite rye bread toast
Because my doctor says his test shows I’m allergic to gluten.
Wheat, rye, oats, on and on are bad for me.

Wait a minute, I’ve just changed my mind.
I will throw health correctness, friendship correctness,
Buddha correctness, out the window.
I will do all these bad for somebody things.
Living shorter with abandon is better
Than living longer in a cage.

One thought on “I Don’t Let Myself

  1. I’m with you, Helen. Or almost: I’m at the age where I’m cranky enough to say things I shouldn’t, but young enough be heaped with consequences when I do. Sometimes I wonder about that cage. Sometimes a cage can affords its denizen a better life, keeping the harsh reality out just as much as it keeps the wilderness in. Sometimes it seems the other way around. Sometimes it just depends on which side of bars we THINK we are on.

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